Sunday, December 31, 2006

Ugh

I have been sick for 3 days so that's why I haven't written anything. First day was feel like poo day, yesterday was cough and sneeze day, today is blow my nose day. I've slept a total of 22 hours in 2 days. I think it was that nasty cold weather in Seattle and the fact that we were both run ragged during our visit. Not that we didn't enjoy seeing everyone, but we didn't really get a chance to rest.

Tonight we are not going out. We'll let everyone else go out and get drunk for us. We have a nice bottle of wine chilling in the fridge (which will taste better than nyquil and still do the trick) and will watch the ball drop on t.v. Aren't we exciting?

Tuesday, December 26, 2006

Holiday (not so much)

1. Every minute of my time is spoken for. I love seeing everyone, and spending quality time, but ever since we arrived last Friday I haven't had a moment to myself and now I'm starting to get cranky and pissy, and for those of you who I will be seeing in the next few days, I apologize in advance. :)

2. Of course, this holiday sucks without mom. She is the peacemaker and without her everyone seems to be on edge. It's just not the same. I think if she was here I wouldn't have had a wonderful and fun dinner with Julia and Dustin (Matt's sister and her boyfriend) at Peking restaurant in Puyallup, one of the few times I've felt free during this vacation.

3. No Christmas tree, no milk and cookies, had to hang the stockings myself, on Christmas this year. It was so different the past holidays weren't even comparable.

Sorry to complain, but I need everyone to understand where I'm at and where I'm coming from. In some ways, in many ways actually, I can't wait to go HOME to L.A. Where it's just Matt and me, and our kitties, and our life together.

Sunday, December 17, 2006

Party Girl

Such a cute little hussy!

Thursday, December 14, 2006

1 week

And we're off to the Northwest. I can't believe time has passed so quickly. Matt is currently finishing a draft that he's been working on all semester, and tomorro is his last day of school for 3 weeks. Sometimes I forget how hard he is working, and how many risks he's taking by wanting to be a writer for the rest of his life. He's so brave to want to turn his art into a career. That's something I could never do. Just give me community theater and I'm a happy camper.

A good friend of ours is in town and will be staying with us for a few days. And look for pictures in the next few days from last Saturday night, a dinner party where we played Quelf, and all hell broke loose...

Friday, December 08, 2006

Thursday, December 07, 2006

Year of life

Brie is due at the end of January! It's a girl, but for privacy's sake I won't mention the name they have selected. Have to keep some things a surprise.

And to add on to the exciting news, another one of my dearest friends is due in June. She and her husband are very excited to welcome their parakeet in 2007. :)

Hopefully another friend or 2 will be due next year as well. You know who you are, and have fun trying!

Congratulations to Jenny and Brie. I am so happy for you!

Scrooge

This is normally my favorite time of year. However, because of reasons that I'm sure I don't have to mention, I am anti-holiday this year. I want nothing to do with trees, decorations, christmas carols, commercials...bah humbug! It's a constant reminder of what I will be missing this year, never mind the fact that tv stations are constantly running advertisement for breast cancer research and/or foundations. :P Again, it didn't work for my family, I've lost my mother, so please have some sensitivity and stop bothering me! So I just switch the channel or turn off the radio/tv all together. I've pretty much stopped watching tv at this point. Thank goodness for TiVo recording America's Next Top Model last night. Not only did I get to fast forward through the commercials :P but Caridee beat that snotty Melrose.

Monday, December 04, 2006

Dream dream dream

I had the best and worst dream last night. I am filled with regret and home, sadness and happiness, and yet I'm so ready to burst into tears right here and now. Matt says it's a wish fulfillment dream, showing me what I really want.

I dreamed that Mom was alive and well, that she had woken up during some sort of service, but no one cared to call me. I found out when I flew home for Christmas. I even said to someone, "Am I dreaming?" and Mom said "No, why?" to which Katie responded "I'll tell you later." I even said that someone should pinch me to make sure I wasn't dreaming, and they did and it hurt, but I didn't wake up.

I'm now filled with this sense of false hope and incredible sadness that when I go home she'll be there. And she won't. And now that the tears are falling, I need to go get some kleenex.

Friday, December 01, 2006

So sleepy

I'm exhausted. It's why I haven't been writing much. Today I'm forcing myself to stay awake because I need to sleep well tonight. I am getting up very early tomorrow morning to go support Amanda at her karate test at 8am. She's trying to get her orange belt. I hope she gets it. I know she's been working hard. So I'm hoping to sleep well and go to bed early. Since I start bootcamp on Monday, I need to start going to bed early anyway. I'll be going 3x a week next week and the week after, and then the next week I'll go 4x. Hopefully I'll be in some sort of better shape by the time the holidays roll around.