...I wish I didn't care so much. A friend of mine is going through what I went through about 4 years ago. It's not that I'm being flooded with memories and that my grief is overwhelming me once more. It's that someone I care about is in pain, and there is nothing I can do for them.
...I wish I didn't look towards the future with a heavy heart. I miss my positive attitude these days. And while on the outside I'm happy and perky, inside I feel like I'm about to explode. I really need to start exercising again.
...I wish my self-confidence didn't have anything to do with other people's approval of me. That I could just believe in myself on my own.
...I wish I didn't get so easily distracted.
...I wish I could just go out and take what I want, instead of saying "Oh, that's 10 years down the road..."
But in spite of all of this, I am happy, and very joyful to be part of a production again. Opening night is just a week away, and I am so excited to see how everything is coming together. It's going to be a fabulous show.