I've been reading various blogs today and seeing how so many of my friends are going through loss. Miscarriages, lost loved ones, having to give away pets...it's very humbling. And while I'm not yet fully dealing with the impending loss of my Grandpa, I will be shortly as I leave Friday for a week or so. I know it will bring back many memories of Mom, but I will take her with me. My aunts, cousins, uncle, sister and Dad will be there. We are so lucky to have each other. I don't know what I'd do without them.
Yesterday Dad called to tell me another colleague of his had passed away last week due to complications from Alztheimers (sp). He sounded so tired, and so sad. I really didn't know what to do except support him in every way that I could over the phone, which is so hard. I just never know if I'm getting the job done, you know? And as I talked to my Aunt last night, I suddenly thought about how as a child, I never thought these days would come. I never really thought about how my Grandparents would die. I thought everything would stay the same and we'd always see eachother at the Holidays, birthdays, and even the yearly family reunions. Now it's so hard to get together. We all have our own new families now and while we're still all connected, our family has changed so much over the years. Thinking of this makes me a little sad, but I know it's just part of life. And there are some things in life that I just have to accept. This is one of them.
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It's one of the most terrible things about growing up and getting older, is that we find ourselves losing more and more people in our lives. When I was younger I only attended a handful of funerals, and now I'm attending at least one or two every year and I realize that it will only get more frequent. Sucks, but that's life.
I can relate to moving away from the family, feeling less connected -- especially in times of crisis and loss. But it's obvious you come from a good place and good people, just from knowing you.
Here's a big virtual hug for your trip and the hard times ahead for your family. I know you'll be a major comfort for everyone else, just make sure you let yourself be comforted, too. Take care.
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